We’re so far. But, I’ve never felt this close to you. These days I screech through ache. They turn my mind and body through canals of pain disguised as joy. Yet, you still find a way to be painted along the sweeping waters. Along the jagged white water surfaces of this stretch of stream, I see you staring back at me. It’s hard sometimes not to associate you with the troubles this current gives me. Hard not to blame the face that lays so serenely above its conquering tide. I don’t want to associate you with this pain. But, how can I not when I see you everywhere. Amongst everything I breathe. How dare I let an essence so beautiful as you overlay atop the anchorings of my deepest sorrows. But, I can’t help it. I will always and forever see you everywhere. It’s scary. The knowledge of you being there makes me more aware of the present. And It whispers lightly, that I’m responsible for it. Love forces you into coherence with the now. I wonder if I’m ready for it. I wonder if you are too.