Get better and scream to the heavens. I miss talking to the heavens. Their voices have been mute. The I Ching has been a good help. I asked it about you today. I asked if what we’re doing is good for me. It told me to “start new”. With an emphasis on respect to the current make up of our relationship. The new king needs to bring positive different ways into an already built kingdom. The truth is I’m confused all the time. In this kingdom of ours. I want to lean on you. But right when I feel like I can you start moving. And I wish I felt I could lean on you. I would take it over the romance. I would take leaning on each other over the infinite midnights. If it meant I could know more about you, and you about me, I would give it all up. But maybe you don’t want that. I wish you would tell me if you did. But the world I speak in doesn’t always speak back to me. And that’s ok. I know it is.